Parental Observation # 245

So something interesting and deceptively subtle just happened. I was rocking the baby to sleep with a little Sam Cooke (the only cd that has been in the player the whole time since her birth:) - and I was doing the internal dialogue that I am sure everyone who has tried to put a kid down to sleep has had "Ok, there they go... eyes are closing - that's it, ok - no, wait..... there's a twitch and a flutter..... Oh, there we go - the big sigh, she's out... except she's not - one then two eyes OPEN! Arrgh! Frustrating. I usually really want her to go to sleep because I have something I need do like pee or eat or something else of a totally basic nature. But today, I didn't need to do anything - I just knew she was tired and was rocking her down when I caught myself - "that's the 4th song - she's usually out by now.... oh, there go her eyes - she's out" and this is where it got interesting because I realized I didn't care if she went out or not. Her eyes opened, she looked at me for a few long moments and I just looked back, not thinking, not wanting the moment to be any different that it was. It was beautiful and I would have missed it if I would have doing business as usual being stuck in my head.... I was still looking as the eyelids dropped and she was out:)

Cousins Finley and Silas dreaming together a few weeks ago